Hey girls <3
I've got a new blog cause my old one's closed.
About me ...
I'm sixteen years old and i hate eating.
yea, now you probably know what my blog is about ...
I'm struggeling with an eating disorder since two years and a few months. No, I wouldn't say that I'm pro Ana.
I mean, what is pro Ana? - now, there are girls about 11 and 12 years, who think they're pro Ana when they wear a red bracelet and lose 2kg. If you belong to this wanna-be-anas, you might not read my blog.
About two years ago (I was quite fat) I started losing weight.
I was in a camp with my class. The first days were hard,
but it get easier. I began to feel tired.
When I was at home I saw that I lost 5kg in 5 days! amazing, isn't it?
So I decided to loose 5kg more. Everyday I ate nothing, I felt strong...
I lost 15kg in two months..
I said that i'll stop losing weight with 50kg, but it was too late ...
I was in hospital for about one month and I got fat.
I couldn't conrol my food anymore. It was horrible!
After the time in hospital I got Bulimia...
Mia was my best friend until a few weeks ago.
Ana came into my life again.
I get so angry when I read about girls who WANT be anorexic.
I wish I had never started with this fuckin' diet.
I wanted to be healty. I would do everything to be healty,
but I gave up.
I know that Ana is the only one who can make me happy
and I'll do everything for Ana now.
I'm starving. only food in my mind.
...but i'll disappear slowly.
Nobody will realize it... until it is too late..
yea, it will take time until I can do it.
I'll eat, I'll starv, I'll run ....
stay strong and think thin <3
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